HAPPY BiRTHDAY JESS MARiE. <3

"Everything in this room is eatible. Even I'm eatible, but that is called cannibalism my dear children, and is in fact frowned upon in most societies." - Willy Wonka

"the best kind of prize .. is a surprise.! hehehe" - Willy Wonka

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o0o0o0oH    SnAp: N0 YOUR SUPPOSED TO WRITE ABOUT OUR BIG DAY YESTERDAY IN YOUR XANGA

so yesterday .. i got up and got ready. went out & bought stuff for lauren for her birthday, got lunch, ate it, relaxed, and made brownie`s. then headed over to lorraine`s to help set up for the surprize party. by the way .. lorraine`s an amazing cook. she made a super cool cookie cake. & steph made a nice cake as well. anyway .. everyone got there by like 4:30ish .. then lauren, suzi, and zuniga got there at like 5. and we all hung out .. people went swimming. missy & i sat around. ordered pizza. spooned on the couch with 2 of my favorite people. (christina & caitlin.) left lorraine`s at like 9 .. stopped home & got ready. Then Emily, Lorraine, Steph, & i went over to see lauren b`s new house. talked to natalie & tori, met lauren`s new neighbor`s, steph threw thing`s in people`s pool`s. left lauren`s at like 11:30 .. dropped everyone off. then came back here and relaxed. wrote to chris at training for national guard. read chapter 2 of harry potter. because i`m a nerd. and then fell asleep.

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today is jess marie`s birthday.

skipping tennis for the day. going out to get jessie`s present`s & what not with em, christine, & my mommy. then 4:30-6:30 i`ve got driver`s ed with jess, em, & caitlin. (should  be an amazing class with those 3.) and after driver`s ed we`r going back to jessie`s to spend time with her for her birthday.

have an outstanding day my loves. <3 god bless.

blah. blah. today=sunday. blah. blah.

i decided that when the new willy wonka movie come`s out .. i`m buying it.

today=hanging out with emily. then partying with the hotties.

tomorrow=tennis. driver`s ed. & jessie`s birthday.

love. love. love. <3

first update in ever.

because myspace is addicting and i`ve been busy.

new layoutttt'.

going to spend the day in skokie visiting shane for his birthday with ms. sarah tucker. it`s like a dream come true. i getta' spend the day with 2 of the coolest kid`s i know.

emily & christine come home today. thank god. i`ve been lonely without my super awesome girl`s. and i`ve been in need of the star game.

i`ll update tonight/tomorrow.

see you later alligator.

after while crocodile.

loooooove. <3

 .. ANNND' i`M BACK, AS i SAiD i WOULD BE ..

once again i`ve realized that i`m neglecting xanga ever since myspace. so "to whom it may concer .." i apoligize.

ya' know .. the other day in english we were gunna' write about the one place in the world where we wanted to be most at that moment .. and the first place to come to mind was wisconsin. of course. because lately i`m missing it there like crazy. and i wanna' go back badly. i definately cannot wait till we go back. ::sighs:: even if it is more for a goodbye to chris type thing before he leaves for training.

well .. the second place that came to mind was camp keep. and sheesh. do i miss it there or what.? this summer`s gunna' be totally different .. and i`m not quite sure what i`m gunna' do with myself. i honestly don`t know where i`d be without camp. and summer without it is way too weird and less exciting to think about.

soo' i realized today that when i`m sleepy .. i get irritable very easily. and even when i`m not tired .. lately people have been making me irritable and frusterating me beyond belief. like people who lie horribly. i`m not saying i`ve never lied before. everyone has. but when someone lies all the time .. or about stupid thing`s .. it frusterates me. or extremely judgemental people. once again .. i`m not saying i don`t judge people. it`s one thing i`m actually trying to do less of. but when someone is so judgemental that they have something bad to say about every single person who walks by them .. then it make`s me very angry. speshally if they don`t know anything about the person. all it`s doing is trying to make them feel better about themselve`s. and it doesn`t work either. so what`s up with that. another thing .. when someone who you think was a great friend of yours is a total 'you know what' to you and your other close friend`s. and the person talk`s about you all behind your back`s all the time, and when you find out, you`re pissed .. but you end up being all buddy-buddy with the person a couple week`s later. i`m definately not saying hold a grudge. i hate that. i`m the kind of person who forgive`s people, forget`s, and move`s on with life. but when someone is that horrible to you, keep`s lieing, never apoligize`s .. and then a couple week`s later you`re all close with them as if none of it happened .. it`s extremely frusterating. once again .. i`m totally not saying to hold a grudge. i`m all for forgiving the person even if they continue acting like a 'you know ..' but to become close with them and become all buddy-buddy with them soon after what happened .. i mean .. what`re you gunna' do when it happen`s again.? rahhh' frusterated beyond belief, i am.

also .. past like two week`s have been like .. emotionally draining. i`m so exhausted, fed up, frusterated, irritated, with everything. i`m going insane. (which is another reason i`d like to go to wisconsin for like a weekend. calm`s me down.) like .. past two week`s i`ve cried more about little thing`s than i`ve cried in like 2 month`s .. it`s been crazy. and intense and serious conversation`s with people lately too. i like to have conversation`s that are serious and intense because they get you thinking .. and it`s nice to feel like you can talk to people about thing`s like that once and a while. but sheesh. what a way to start me crying about a ton of thing`s.

definately with how irritable, frusterated, and drained i`ve been lately .. sleep has been something that i`ve needed lately. and i should be getting more of it .. when in fact i`ve been getting less of it. great right.? i know.

i apoligize. this was definately supposed to be an update. but it turned into me complaining about a lot of the stuff that`s been frusterating me lately. and i totally didn`t mean for that to happen. i`m gunna' try and look on the bright side this week, be extremely outgoing. (all the time.), less judegmental, take more chance`s, be less frusterated, and just make it a good week. wish me luck. i`ll probably need all the luck i can get.

thanks for reading. this actually did take a while. please prop. thanks a million. god bless. love. <3

and i realized once again that i am neglecting xanga thanks to myspace. ::sighs:: i`m sorry.

quick not so updatey-update.

i will do this tomorrow-ish. love. <3